Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Nothing is ever easy

In life, there will be so many misunderstandings.
People too tired to ask and people will begin to assume.
Some too tired to explain and some too tired to know why.
Sometimes, things need to be left unspoken, unexplained.
Judgement will always come no matter how hard people explain.
Things aint always go as we expect.
But the truth, will be truth.
If it is meant, it is meant.
Nothing that is worthwhile is ever easy.

Wednesday, 3 July 2013

I know

I know im not a kind of extrovert one. i dont know since when, i enjoy myself being alone, talking to myself, overthink in silence, going anywhere by myself, keeping everything just in me, myself.

I know, some people think it is boring to be me, kinda introvert, not a funny one. But i find it is good somehow. I believe eventhough human need others as a social being, they also need time to be alone.

I know, im not a good speaker. I cannot tell people exactly what i thought what i mean, some people usually misunderstand me. Im better in silence, talking to myself, keeping everything alone.

I know, not everytime im being like this, but i know i spent many times being like this rather than going out socially.

I know, no, i dont know, what exactly what people expect from me. When im start talking, giving my opinion, they dont listen. And when im listening, they blame me for not talking. Hello, i used to talk and u just dont want to listen. Im exactly talking what u are saying about!

I know, im mad, im disappoint, im tired. But i know, these make me learn.

I know world is not a peaceful place to stay. People jerk, people good.

I know im not supposed to be like this, but i need to let it all out. Im not a good speaker, then lemme try as a writer.

All the things that press me will make me stronger, yes i know, i know that bullshit for sure, for real. But for now, i just wanna complain. 

just pardon me this time, to complain, to be mad, and to think. something better left unsaid, kept deep inside, as a secret. Because i know, it is hurt when i tell people, they can hear, but they cant understand.


Monday, 17 June 2013

Seandainya

Kamu tau gak, di saat pernikahan, gak ada yg bilang I will always love you, tapi adanya bilang He or she always makes joy to my day, together in happiness or sadness.

Aku tertegun.

Kamu punya aku, I will make joy to your day. You have me. Dan tangannya terulur membelai rambutku
.
Seandainya semua tidak sesulit ini. Seandainya mencintai tidak serumit ini.



Tuesday, 12 March 2013

My point is i love you,
truthfully,
without a doubt or even the slightest hesitate
I know,
I love you,
From the deepest part of my heart
Until the out most layer of my skin

Wednesday, 20 February 2013

I do not love you

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose,
or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

i love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks yo your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this;

Where I does not exist, nor you.
So close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep

Pablo Neruda

Friday, 21 December 2012

The Traveler and The Pirate

There was a story,

About a traveler and a pirate. They both like to go to many places. They both knew each other for a long time. They were so close and comforted each other. Like the best partner, the best couple ever. They made promise, no matter what happened they will always looked for each other.

One day, when the traveler joined the pirate and they sailed together, a storm sunk the boat and separated them. The traveler shipwrecked in an island which the traveler already known before. There, the traveler met a doctor who cured the traveler.

The pirate, didnt know how, he still stuck at the sea. At first, his heart broke because he lost his best partner. but then he was found by another pirates and they sailed together. The pirate felt happy that finally he met other people, in his kind. 

The traveler looked for the pirate because of the promise they made. The traveler stayed in the island with the doctor, hoping the pirate would be there too. One day, the pirate stopped there and they met. But the pirates has changed. And the traveler too. They separated.

The pirate left the traveler. Went to the sea with his kind. The traveler broke and sad, he lost his best guy. but the traveler left with the doctor. The doctor was a nice one. He accompanied the traveler and shared happiness. Even though they were different but they completed each other. The traveler had great times, which the traveler never had before. 

The pirate separated with his kind, he sailed by his ownself, and he was sad. He missed the traveler and he regret the day he left the island. He tried to come back.

But it was too late. The traveler and the pirate made their own way. They separated, and no way to come back together. No matter how long they have been together but everything has changed.

A traveler is a traveler and a pirate is still a pirate. No matter how close they were, no matter how many similarities they have, no matter how deep they knew each other, but they are different now.

They were great partners but the pirate has to go away. He only was the partner not is partner anymore. The traveler has new partner, and the pirate not allowed to break that. He knew if he still around that could happened but he decided to go.

and this is the story..
when the traveler and the pirate are not together anymore. The traveler stuck in the island with the doctor and the pirate go far far away. But they both know, they special for each other. They were a great partners, and no one can disagree. Bestfriend will always be bestfriend, no matter how far distance and things around. 

Friday, 20 July 2012

Wild World

Hai! It's been 3 months since my last post. Hehehe.
I passed my national and school exams with yeah (i think and proud) great scores on my report. I finished my High School and got some scholars from some universities. I went to Bali with my High School pals, and lost my blackberry though there, whereas i didn't regret it because we had so much fun that time. I went to Ujung Genteng. I went to soooooo many places and did sooooooo many things these holidays. I hadmy prom. I celebrated the graduation. I celebrated birthday. I met friends. I had fun with family. I went out with lover. And so on and so on. I had so many good times with my family, lover, my soon to be family, and super lovely friends. Even there were some problems but now they all over. Peace spreads in everywhere. Joy and happiness come indeed. My holiday almost over. My friends move to another town even country to start the university life. Me, coming soon to move out from town to start my university too. I was lived in a comfort zone where my parents made. And now i realize that i will face the real world in no time. It is not going to be easy, but hard though. Somehow, i'm not ready yet. But fucking yeah, hello real life, hello wild world, where the unfair and complication placed, also hidden happiness and joy. Guide me through please..

Tuesday, 10 April 2012

Wish

Hei jane, here's wishing you a day that's as special as you are. Happy birthday, hope it is awesome as you are. Have a great time with all that you love, wishing you success and happiness always, may you have a very special birthday filled with everything your heart desires and may all your dreams come true, like old wine you keep getting better with time, the older you get, the better you become, you're a gift in everyone's life. I hope you will receive a lot of special gifts. And im sure you wont be feeling like scar that you wrote, just kidding. Im excited, you are eighteen now. haha. have the very best birthday jane, i know you will have a great one. God bless you and fam, best wishes for your life.


HAPPY SWEET EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY JANE APRILIA
may the greatest be ever in your favor


08 April 2012

Wednesday, 4 April 2012

Forever fifteen

Couple days to my birthday, but i feel insecure. Really. Its like, my age doesnt work after 15. I am just wishing a special day loaded with happiness, just a simple wish.

Tuesday, 3 April 2012

Humanity

Is there any life when there is no one assuming that you are do exist? No, there isnt.