Wednesday 31 July 2013

Nothing is ever easy

In life, there will be so many misunderstandings.
People too tired to ask and people will begin to assume.
Some too tired to explain and some too tired to know why.
Sometimes, things need to be left unspoken, unexplained.
Judgement will always come no matter how hard people explain.
Things aint always go as we expect.
But the truth, will be truth.
If it is meant, it is meant.
Nothing that is worthwhile is ever easy.

Wednesday 3 July 2013

I know

I know im not a kind of extrovert one. i dont know since when, i enjoy myself being alone, talking to myself, overthink in silence, going anywhere by myself, keeping everything just in me, myself.

I know, some people think it is boring to be me, kinda introvert, not a funny one. But i find it is good somehow. I believe eventhough human need others as a social being, they also need time to be alone.

I know, im not a good speaker. I cannot tell people exactly what i thought what i mean, some people usually misunderstand me. Im better in silence, talking to myself, keeping everything alone.

I know, not everytime im being like this, but i know i spent many times being like this rather than going out socially.

I know, no, i dont know, what exactly what people expect from me. When im start talking, giving my opinion, they dont listen. And when im listening, they blame me for not talking. Hello, i used to talk and u just dont want to listen. Im exactly talking what u are saying about!

I know, im mad, im disappoint, im tired. But i know, these make me learn.

I know world is not a peaceful place to stay. People jerk, people good.

I know im not supposed to be like this, but i need to let it all out. Im not a good speaker, then lemme try as a writer.

All the things that press me will make me stronger, yes i know, i know that bullshit for sure, for real. But for now, i just wanna complain. 

just pardon me this time, to complain, to be mad, and to think. something better left unsaid, kept deep inside, as a secret. Because i know, it is hurt when i tell people, they can hear, but they cant understand.


Monday 17 June 2013

Seandainya

Kamu tau gak, di saat pernikahan, gak ada yg bilang I will always love you, tapi adanya bilang He or she always makes joy to my day, together in happiness or sadness.

Aku tertegun.

Kamu punya aku, I will make joy to your day. You have me. Dan tangannya terulur membelai rambutku
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Seandainya semua tidak sesulit ini. Seandainya mencintai tidak serumit ini.



Wednesday 20 February 2013

I do not love you

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose,
or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

i love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks yo your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this;

Where I does not exist, nor you.
So close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep

Pablo Neruda