What do i feel for real?

Sometimes i randomly ask the stars, do i have the right path?

Sometimes i randomly ask the wind, do i use the right chain?

Sometimes i randomly ask the dew, do i feel the right feeling?

And sometimes i ask myself, which one is true? Which one?

I feel blue for trashes.

I cry for useless thing.

I try for nothing.

I break down again and again.

too scared to let go, too tired to carry on.

And in a sudden i go back to that night, the night i broke for the first time, the night i felt i was in the lowest point of my life. The memories come back. The feelings dont, but the scars remain.

Darah dan Cinta

Apasih definisi cinta?

Orang gak akan ada yang bisa ngejabarin itu.

Cinta itu rasa yang abstrak, rumit, universal, tapi juga sederhana.

Hari ini, gue dapet satu hal.

Ibaratnya, cinta itu kaya aliran dan pembuluh darah yang ada di badan kita.

Darah, terus mengalir membentuk siklus di dalam tubuh.

Sama seperti cinta, yang selalu mengalir dalam kehidupan kita, mulai dari cinta sepasang kekasih, suami istri, hingga lahir seorang anak,kasih dr org tua, kakak adik, sahabat, kembali lagi menjadi cinta sepasang kekasih dan terus membentuk siklus kehidupan.

Darah, ada banyak zat yang terkandung dalam darah, tapi tujuan utamanya, untuk kelangsungan kehidupan kita.

Sama seperti cinta, setiap orang memiliki cinta. Cinta yang banyak. Dengan cinta, semua orang bahagia, semua org hidup. Ga peduli seberapa banyak cinta yang ada, seberapa jauh org yg kita cintai, yg namanya cinta bakal selalu ada. Sama seperti darah, kandungan kimia yg ada di dalamnya akn selalu sama.

Darah, bisa rusak, bisa habis, bisa berhenti mengalir dan saat itulah manusia akan mati.

Sama seperti cinta, cinta bisa habis, bisa hilang, bisa rusak. Dan disaat seseorang berhenti mencintai orang lain, saaat itulah sesungguhnya dia mati, Hidup tanpa cinta, bagai mata tanpa cahaya, kamu utuh, tapi tidak lengkap.

Jane Aprilia. 14 tahun.

I Melt With You

Circuler

Sejatinya, di dunia ini ga ada yang abadi.
Manusia lahir, bertumbuh, dan suatu saat dia akan kembali pada ketiadaan.
Pohon kecil berkembang menjadi besar, dan suatu saat akan mati.
Film yang diputar dalam hitungan jam pun akan habis.

Begitu pula dalam orang-orang yang hadir dalam kehidupan kita.
Mereka akan datang tanpa kepastian, dan pergi pada akhirnya.

Yang namanya ditinggalkan, emg ga pernah enak.
Tapi, tau ga knapa kita ditinggalkan?
Gue percaya, semua yang terjadi di dalam kehidupan pasti berdasarkan suatu alasan.

Here, i give you a point.
It's better to let them go, because we deserve the others who r better in our life.
Some people are not meant to be with us, they came just to be some extras in our story.
They, who are leaving not always bad people, but it can means that distance between us is just better than being together.
Just let them go.

Tapi, ada beberapa orang yang patut untuk dipertahankan. Mereka sangat berharga.

If you meet the right people, who understand you, and they stick with you no matter how many differences between you and them, you are stupid enough to let them go.
Love, care, and try to make them stay.

Jadilah seseorang yang tidak bisa mereka tinggalkan.
Bukan egois, tapi inilah hidup.
Ketika kita menyia-nyiakan orang-orang yang berarti dlm kehidupan kita, saat itulah kata bodoh patut kita sandang.

Sketched

It is normal, when people are growing up. And same here, me either.

My life book is getting thicker. I sketched and painted different motives and colors everyday.

Somehow, i just make it blank, somehow i make it full.

Just like life's journey.

Now i'm 17, yet still counting. I dont know when its gonna end.

Everyday i step on my way, nowhere to go.

Im getting closer to the real world, when i have to step in my own foot.

People come and go in my life, but some stay.

People change. And me too, i change.

There are times i feel like i can understand nobody.

Even some of my closes.

They said something, then break it. They promised something, then break it.

They come to me if they need me, they nice if they need me.

They hurt me if they want to, but im not supposed to hurt them, im not allowed to.

Not everytime, not everyone. Just sometimes, some of them.

Is this the real life? Way closer to the real world?

It's hard life then, dude.

I dont wanna be negative, i try to find some positives.

I got many things, i learnt many things.

Im stronger, day by day.

I know how to deal many situations

I have many experiences.

I know what are my goods and bads.

I know which i should change to become someone better.

I know whos the real whos the fake.

I know who deserve to be loved, who dont.

I know many things.

And I know, God will always beside me to protect me and lead all my way.

In my age, i know, im still technically imbalance.

Soon, probably i change a bit.

Mature and strong.

But deep inside, im still me.

Someone you used to know, someone you used to love.

I am me, good me.

Sahabat Jiwa

Sahabat itu bukan hanya bertemu di saat kita sulit, bahkan di saat kebahagiaan itu tiba kita pun tidak akan pernah menemukannya.
Karena sejatinya ketulusan hati tidak dapat dilihat apalagi dirasakan.
Semakin dia berguna semakin sulit tau apa2 yang membahagiakan telah diperbuatnya.
Dia seperti jiwa tidak terlihat, dan dia tidak akan pernah menunjukkan kepada kita tentang kebaikan yang dilakukannya.
Sejatinya sahabat hanya ada dalam jiwa tidak pernah dan tak akan pernah kita mengenal apalagi bertemu dengannya.
Dia ada di hati yang menjerit-jerit
Orang bijak mengatakan kebaikan tidak pernah menunggu balasnya.

harry koko santoso

face painting

Today's awesome!

My school had a Christmas party, kinda late, but who cares? :)
It was fun. Totally.

We had percussion contest, and my class was great eventhough we're not the winner :p hehehe.
All students were asked to use Batik for today.
I wore my Pekalongan's one :)

with sisca :)

cute ears :D

And i got my face painting :)
Zoraya made it for me :)


kewl.kewl.kewl.kewl.
i'm lovin' it <3

our face painting

Hand painting :p

Mom made it. It's lipstick :p

"I find that putting my make up on and playing with different looks is really relaxing for me before the show. "
Martina McBride

save the butterflies :(